So to offset this feeling, I browse around the internet — a way of tuning, not unlike a drug, or a prayer that I will find the thing I need — comfort in the document that resists the conclusion of the documentary — so if traffic and weather radio reports, sound recordings of the Hudson, or framing the changing sky may be our art, then perhaps — I’m plotting now — why not these finding aids, this record of labor? A fetishistic compositional move born out of a sense of endangerment? The archive: perhaps above all else, a record of a belief in inscription. Paper, articles, brochures, audio tape, digtal objects. Materials able to be filed, boxed, measured out in bits or feet. Collecting, submitting, hauling, believing in “the work.” Endangered waste turned into — I highlight, copy, paste. Do you recognize a name? A workplace? How many radicals in your blood? Have you heard from them recently? Do you believe in morphogenetic fields? “What are these bright eyes that think but tell nothing? What is white below and red on top?” 1 large soft pretzel weighs about the same as 40 ruby-throated hummingbirds. We would need 5,400,000,000,000 45-gram packets to transform Lake Vostok into Tang. I believe this qualifies me as a member of The June Leaf Fan Club. She knows that we are hanging by our wrists, puddle faces up. At the tip of every hair gapes an opening, lamprey-esque. Look — oozing cuticles! And then the toes blinked out like a disappearing photograph, and baby went on a miniature vacation to Puerto Vallarta where a lion almost devoured him like a fortune cookie, but he escaped and ate convenience store sandwiches and Hershey’s Kisses. Slicing the weather & tilting parking lots. Get your dose of color proving what not that proving what but something else proving what true, no longer interested in recording dialogue, top of the stove hot proving what not that but the proving that was circulating last night: 1, 2, 3 people proving what or nowhere. Consider this a sleep. This sleep. Is temporary as Shakespeare. I am at home today, reading Homo Sacer. Finally, I had to visualize an imaginary aunt who made a space for me to rest. And now I am a part of the sidewalk itself: a mixture of asphalt, street grit, trash, insects, dog shit, human dander and skin cells, chewing gum. & the sun is shining and warming my belly & illuminating my split ends. Somehow I’ve put the “un” in understanding. Like Jesse and Chester in Dude Where’s My Car?, I don’t really care whether I remember where the hell I parked; instead I merely hope to conjure some potentially world-saving wholly improbable living up. When blues legend ‘Bare Foot D’ remarked ‘awooooh eeee’ he borrowed much from ontology, so we will primarily be focusing on the Custard-Not-Mustard model of economics. Proving the fact that bedrizzles a spermatism’s hippophagous injustices and my four snuffings once a day. And the more they nibble, the more they forisfamiliate brank-like permixtion. It won’t peevishly dele. Suspect and let whir the secrophores. It’s like I have roc birds and carry owls sewn into my womb. And normally we would expect the feeling of arrival to wane upon departure.
[Note: SPD Spring 012 catalog #12. Sources: Jill Magi, “Labor Lost and Found”, at Spinozablue, 26 Apr 09; JBR, but see Mark Vernon, “It’s time for science to move on from materialism: The rigid 19th-century orthodoxy should be challenged to allow broader interpretations, as Rupert Sheldrake argues”, at The Guardian, 28 Jan 012; Michael Leong, “from Michael Palmer vs. Michael Palmer”, at EOAGH 8, 28 Jan 012; Donato Mancini, “Fun Facts”, as quoted in Sam Rowe’s review of Mancini’s “Buffet World”, at Full Stop, 17 Jan 012; John Yau, “Can We Do Something About This?”, at Hyperallergic, 28 Jan 012; John Yau, “June Leaf Paintings & Sculpture”, at Brooklyn Rail, Apr 08; Jessica Dessner, “Work the Marionette”, at EOAGH 8; Gordon Massman, “1159”, “1154”, “1181”, at Tarpaulin Sky, Summer 03; Kevin Opstedal, “Sean Penn will reprise the role of Jeff Spicoli in the movie version of this poem”, at Ukulele Feedback, 28 Jan 012; Bernadette Mayer, “Attempt to Write a Love Poem”, as quoted in Nada Gordon, “Form’s Life: An Exploration of the Works of Bernadette Mayer (Conclusion)”; Bhanu Kapil, “Ban: Antidote”, at Was Jack Kerouac a Punjabi?, 28 Jan 012; JBR; Ariana Reines, “Mercury Reviewed in the Volta”, at Ariana Reines, 28 Jan 028; Jeffrey Morgan, “Dear Crying Shame,”, at La Petite Zine; Judith Halberstam, The Queer Art of Failure; “A Essay on Ontology”, at Essay Generator; Leon’s Random Essay Generator; JBR Myriam Moscona, “Door In” (tr. Kate Braid), at Poempire, 14 Jan 011; Greyhoos, “And normally we would expect the feeling of arrival to wane upon departure (and vice versa as well)”, at Our God is Speed, 28 Jan 012]