But it all seems very distant now, like when you’ve been up for four nights, finally get some sleep, and then you’re sitting there drinking a cup of coffee trying to remember what the hell you’ve been up to. Do you remember that feeling? I was thinking about Blanqui, right at the end of his life, sitting in his prison cell, knowing full well that what he was writing he was going to be writing for ever. An inside source gave Team 10 a picture snapped inside the San Onofre Nuclear Generating Station showing plastic bags, masking tape and broom sticks used to stem a massive leaky pipe. The buzz left a yearning in the body of a boy. There are organs within desire. He chose to define “exploit” as a “heroic feat.” Akin to “building islands,” and keeping parts of his rice farm flooded, so migratory birds can have a place to “feed and breed”. For the sake of argument, there it is, in the form of garnished wages and recourse loans. Or the liquidation of assets gained over time (except those listed in Schedule C, such as residence situated on a farm owned and operated by the farmer at the time of retirement; cash on hand, say, $37; savings account, $263; checking account, $154; household goods, $2,000; pictures etc, $50; clothing, $330 … The man shifted the shells and said he’d give us a dollar if we could tell him which one wasn’t genetically modified. With my eyes closed, I can’t tell the difference between the taste of a red and a yellow raspberry. I can’t with my eyes open, either. The dead are doing a pretty slack job of burying the dead — then again, “Create a small sack like a fire-arrow ... if you would like to get at a town or castle, seek to obtain a cat from that place. And bind the sack to the back of the cat, ignite it, let it glow well and thereafter let the cat go, so it runs to the nearest castle or town, and out of fear it thinks to hide itself where it ends up in barn hay or straw it will be ignited.” Whoa. That is non-non-non-non-NON-Heinous! I mean, “The friendly, floating Rubber Duck has healing properties: it can relieve mondial tensions as well as define them. The rubber duck is soft, friendly and suitable for all ages! It measures nearly 46 feet tall and 55 feet long and is shown being pulled by a tug boat only a fraction of its size.” “All of The Shining was shot with sets,” Göransson explains. “The snow was salt. It was 110 degrees inside the soundstage. The air was saturated with gasoline fumes. The cameramen and camerawomen wore gasmasks as they ran through the rooms chasing the little boy. There were antennae in the walls. The production crew built up an entire hotel inside. Nothing was fake.” It’s that voiceover I keep hearing. It explains to us the details of our austere and infested bodies. Including the New Jerusalem we enter into like rats. According to the voice, even the purest bodies are jerky and the deportations are extreme. Sometimes when I enter New Jerusalem I enter on a bier or a stretcher or the man with the metals has a swelling. My daughter burns her toys, and it smells like a war economy. I am blunted out. Just ordered Romulan Soup Woman tho (“Passing remarks, communiques, lineated critiques, speculative commentaries and inter-ludic disquisitions on science fiction, the culture industry, thermonuklearen terrors and crustaceous justitia from Jo Crot, Benjamin Friedlander, Samuel Solomon, Anne Boyer, Verity Spott, Amaranth Walton, Joe Luna, Caitlin Doherty, Boyd Nielson, Samantha Walton, Pierre Joris, Justin Katko, David Grundy, Peter Manson, Amiri Baraka, Andrew Spragg and Die Zwei Owens. Texts proceptually appropriated from Douglas Oliver, Neil Pattison, Nikolai Ostrovsky, Buckminster Fuller and James Warhola. Komix by Hiram Kruller. Komix from a North Korean manga primer on political economy. 84 pages.”) Don’t go in J Crew. It’s too depressing. Don’t go into Bloomingdale’s either. Look for the hot guys. Look for yourself in the hot guys. When I choked on the cupcake, I whispered, I’m dying. I am sitting at my desk & I’m sitting in outer space. Hyphen this, hyphen that. I had a dream last night about throwing a beer stein at my boss’s face. Theraflu makes me feel sexy.
[Note: Sources: Sean Bonney, “Letter on Time and Work”, at Abandoned Buildings, 1 May 013; Mitch Blacher, “Plastic bags, tape, broomsticks fix San Onofre leak”, at ABC 10 News, 30 Apr 013; j/j hastain, “MMXXX”, at Otoliths 29; Aileen Ibardaloza, “MMXXXVIII”, at Otoliths 29; Mark Cunningham, “[sort]”, at Otoliths 29; Franz Helm, sometime around 1530, as quoted in Alexis C Madrigal, “UPDATE! Cat Bombs More Prevalent Than Previously Thought”, at The Atlantic, 5 Feb 013; JBR; Dead Bill, in Bill and Ted’s Bogus Journey; Florentijn Hofman, and Geoff Tuck, as quoted in Tuck’s “The World’s Largest Rubber Duck Arrives in Hong Kong”, at Colossal, 1 May 013; Johannes Göransson, Haute Surveillance, and Blake Butler, as quoted in Butler’s “Sarcophagi Of Prisoners Covered In Cocaine”, at Vice, 1 May 013; JBR; Richard Owens, “Romulan Soup Woman (Damn The Caesars Suspended)”, at Damn the Caesars, 1 May 013; Marisa Crawford, “[untitled]”, “Interplanetary”, “Holiday Eyes”, and Krystal Languell, “Grrlsplain”, as quoted in Elizabeth Treadwell, “GRRRLSPLAINING/provenance & manuscripts: flash anthology no. 4”, at Secret Mint, 1 May 013]